Aargh

random rants lang…

my last post was about a certain someone at the workplace who apparently has no compassion whatsoever. to recap, usually when someone mentions that so-and-so brought his/her family member to the hospital, you immediately (almost instinctively) ask "o, bakit? anong nangyari?", right? that -certain someone- merely asked me if so-and-so was finished with his/her work. i wasn’t even finished explaining on behalf of my co-worker, biglang nag-butt in. in short, di siya interesado at wala siyang pakialam.

well, just last monday i went to work and she hands me a folder. in a pa-tweetums-tweetums tone of voice, she says, "deadline yan, ha?"

nang-aasar ka ba?

so, lemme get this straight…when you’re desperate, that’s when you suddenly become malambing?

hahaha…

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the household is currently experiencing a crisis. my mom has a habit of chucking out the good help and keeping the not-so-good help. for instance…she let one of our maids go because her dislike of this person kept building up over time. there isn’t even a major reason for her dislike; i don’t know what triggered it, but all it needs is one particular incident or mannerism to set mom off on a hating spree, and when it happens, snowball effect na yan. so the maid leaves, and we are left with one. this one recruits her niece. wala pang isang linggo, gusto na nilang umalis pareho. sabi, di daw nila kaya yung trabaho. tuloy, and sinisi ni mama yung ate ko. because of the addition of my sister, her baby, and the yaya, dumami ang trabaho. tuloy, di na nila kaya. which is complete bull, because when the maid who left was still here, kayang-kaya naman nila yung trabaho. they even get to sleep from 1 to 3 in the afternoon because mom does not require them to make merienda. tapos ang gagawing dahilan yung ate ko?? kapaaal…

so my sister is left feeling hurt and unwanted. she doesn’t show it, but i know. ako naman…bakit yung katulong o yung driver ang ispo-spoil ni ma? e si ate ANAK niya. DUGO. FAMILIA. tapos mas maiinis siya kay ate?

parang di tama a.

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i got home early today. there was no deadline, so i figured i’d leave my work unfinished until monday and just take it easy. it takes me roughly two hours to get home, anyway, so i thought i’d get a headstart, finally get to have dinner with the family (which is rare). i get home, we have dinner, and during dinner my ma manages to criticize me for 1) leaving work early when there was still work to be done, and 2) buying (another) backpack.

first of all, I’M the one working. I’M the one that gets tired. if i decide to leave work early–and i don’t get to do that often–then DON’T CRITICIZE THAT DECISION. second, i’ll buy a bloody backpack if i want, and i’ll use it or not use it if i want. RESPECT MY DECISION. i’m WORKING, for god’s sake.

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end of random rants.

i was going to blog about a certain somebody in the office who apparently has no compassion whatsoever. in our language, walang pagmamalasakit. i was really going to sit here and steam because of the disgusting lack of compassion this person has.

but then again, what for? it’s not going to change anything. and why should she show any compassion for the ‘drones’ and ’slavebots’ that break their backs everyday for them? as far as she’s concerned, we’re getting paid to do our job. yun lang. she doesn’t have to give a shit about those who can’t make it to work because, let’s say, they have to take a family member to a doctor. it doesn’t matter that it could be serious, all that she cares about is that natapos mo yung trabaho mo. wala siyang paki kung nahihirapan ka o baka mamatay kamag-anak mo. ni hindi makikinig sa paliwanag. basta ang tanong niya "tapos na ba tong folder na to?" yun lang.

sige, ok lang. ituloy lang niya yan. tuloy-tuloy din lang naman ang bagsak niya sa impyerno. i’ve tried to get along with most people there, but there are SOME who aren’t worth my time, my patience, or my prayers.

so, no, i won’t sit here and steam, i won’t get mad. i just won’t care either. i’ll let KARMA make its rounds until it gets to her.

let’s see how she feels if and when one day her one of her own family gets sick and she needs to absent herself to bring the poor sod to a doctor. wag na siya magpaliwanag. isa lang naman ang tanong ko: "na-file mo na ba folder ko para maabot ko quota ko?"

eat that, you stupid shit.